Rio de Janeiro 2016!!!

Rio de Janeiro, Brazil - will host the 2016 Olympics! 

Question

I read in someone's profile " quiz of the day: how is it possible for a human to handle so much stress ? still wondering .." And I wanted to keep my answer.

Depending on the stress it can be easier or harder to handle but everyone is different i mean: some can handle more and others less. each one knows how it is inside. some people have a big luck after big storms and others fall in a deep hole after a simple rain. i cant say that your pain or stress is better or worse than mine cause we never know ... how strong or weak the other is. just one thing im sure: everything has an end so the stress will have an end too. how? it is another question.

Always a Perfect Circle

Sunshine

I have found a video that a guy did for her gf. Cute and fun. But it opened a door to a place that a long time I wasnt visiting: my own heart.

A simple song made me cry like a baby. I dont know if it is something from the memory or for a lack of something. All I know is that all I got in my life doesnt belong to me.. belongs to the world. Im just a way to make things alive or take a form.

I loved so much the Life.. and I still do. But as I said once.. it was never a corresponded love. Life for me was always a party for what I was not invited. But I didnt notice this when I was younger.. just now when I look back. And many other things Im started to understand now. I guess I was always protected for a kind of Superior force. If I had noticed all this before it would have been hit me deeply. Now is only history.

God bless everyone.

Aliens

"You may not believe it, but there are people who go through life with very little friction or distress. They dress well, eat well, sleep well. They are contented with their family life. They have moments of grief but all in all they are undisturbed and often feel very good. And when they die it is an easy death, usually in their sleep. I am not one of them. Oh no, I am not one of them, I am not even near to being one of them. They are there and I am HERE".

The Aliens by Charles Bukowski

Michael Jackson - 1958 - 2009

WRONG!

The day that Rio stopped

"The traffic stopped to see it" - said a carioca (a person who lives in Rio de Janeiro)

Phenomenon surprised visitors on the beach of São Conrado, Rio de Janeiro - Brazil, in the South Zone close to Leblon, Ipanema and Barra da Tijuca. Cold front should continue until Thursday, causing cloudy time.

The cone is formed very close to the coast, in São Conrado . (Photo: Ana Pini / TV Globo).

It is happening in Brazil and in some cities close to the beach.

Source: O Globo - G1

We all have priorities in life, even that it means to give up of our dreams. I dont know still if I'll have to give up of all my dreams. Yes.. I Have found out that I still have some. But to move on it means leave the past, deleting useless things and just carry on the results to make us a better person and have that big and sincere smile on the face. I know that it is impossible to forget some of the worst experiences in our lives but we have to be opened to receive a new reality to find what is the best in us.

I hate anesthetics. But there is something wrong.. so wrong that I needed a professional to help me out. Depression doesnt go by itself. Sadness can pass away but a deep depression is awful. It changes who you are. I started again to take a medecine to quit this dicease. It seems that it wont have a cure. For so long Im feeling weird and bad experiences made it come out again. Well..I had the illusion that I was fealed. I was wrong. The doctor said that I will need at least 2 weeks to start feeling the effects of the medecine. At the same time Im doing many things to keep me busy. Gosh.. Im so cold inside as never before. I dont know why I have the impression that deep inside I still have some hope. Hope of what.. i dont know exactly.

Money, fake friends, we can get anytime. I just need to catch myself again and look around and realize that it is real.

So far away she goes. She doesnt know exactly where but she keeps going on. She cant stop. Die inside is the real death.

God, keep me alive. You never failed with me. But what or who God is? Let me find my star part inside of me again and shine again with a big smile.. whatever happens.

I dont mind if someone cares or not about me. I just want to meet myself again...whoever I'll be after all this.

Deleting...

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Breaking the useless chains

Many things happening around the word.. good ones and......bad ones mostly. But how to change the world if we cant even change ourselves? People have theories about how to be good, they have a religion to see the rules but most never follow them.

But I can understand why people give up. I see them like the childrem that someday they were.. and they keep playing like kids as the world were a big playground. But in a playgroung always have the strongest and the weakest. There is the one who beats and the ones who are beaten.. The winner and the loser... just like the world we are living.

If you give up, thats fine. Theres a lot of people that cant handle life. But keep on your mind that it is always a new beggining.. in life.. or after that.

Im trying to be on track again inside myself. It is not a shame to confess a weakness. Even an warrior have hard times and feel fear as well.

Bad experiences will always happen.. but many of them can be avoided by us. Our weakness sometimes make us believe in bad character persons.

Try to be free of your expectations. Enjoy what you have.

Be your best friend.

Words of Wisdom

What is happening around the world and with our planet is too much to be ignored. I remember the letter of the Chief Seattle to the USA President Franklin Pierce in 1855 (or 1851, 1854 as it has been said along the years):

"I am a savage and do not understand any other way. I have seen a thousand rotting buffaloes on the prairie, left by the white man who shot them from a passing train. I am a savage and do not understand how the smoking iron horse can be made more important than the buffalo that we kill only to stay alive.

What is man without the beasts? If all the beasts were gone, man would die from a great loneliness of the spirit. For whatever happens to the beasts, soon happens to man. All things are connected."

"Teach your children that we have taught our children that the earth is our mother. Whatever befalls the earth befalls the sons of earth. If men spit upon the ground, they spit upon themselves. This we know; the earth does not belong to man; man belongs to the earth. This we know. All things are connected like the blood which unites one family. All things are connected.

Even the white man, whose God walks and talks with him as friend to friend, cannot be exempt from the common destiny. We may be brothers after all. We shall see. One thing we know which the white man may one day discover; our God is the same God.

You may think now that you own Him as you wish to own our land; but you cannot. He is the God of man, and His compassion is equal for the red man and the white. The earth is precious to Him, and to harm the earth is to heap contempt on its creator. The whites too shall pass; perhaps sooner than all other tribes. Contaminate your bed and you will one night suffocate in your own waste.

But in your perishing you will shine brightly fired by the strength of the God who brought you to this land and for some special purpose gave you dominion over this land and over the red man.

That destiny is a mystery to us, for we do not understand when the buffalo are all slaughtered, the wild horses are tamed, the secret corners of the forest heavy with the scent of many men and the view of the ripe hills blotted by talking wires.

Where is the thicket? Gone. Where is the eagle? Gone.

The end of living and the beginning of survival."

If the letter is a true document or not, doesnt matter, but it was written in those times like the words of a prophet, in this case, someone (maybe a "savage"?) with a view centuries beyond than others.

Save The World

   

Last April 2, was gathered in London, 19 of the 20 countries of the G20, for the Global reform. Everything is explained at the Explanatory guide to the communiqué at the London Summit 2009 site.

As the economist Hamish McRae said "This summit won't save the world, but at least it has made an important start", we all hope the same.

Save Our Planet

I was amazed after looking through my window and most of them were off... as mine! It was a big silence in a city that never sleeps. At least something good in this dangerous and useless life.

According to the scientists the countries of North of our planet will suffer the the biggest cold weather soon. But all the world will see awful desasters if nothing changed.

I hope that this moviment generates many others. But not just beautiful acts but something effective from all countries, mainly the most developed ones, responsable for all this mess in our planet. I didnt say it. All the channels say it everyday. They tell what the scientists are seeing for our future if our planet doesnt change the way to treat them.

I dont mind for myself. I do for my kids.

"I have no friends; I make my Mind my Friend.
I have no enemy; I make Incautiousness my Enemy."
Samurai Creed
Bushido

Deleting...

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While deleting, the sensation is exactly like this: being in a train passing through a lot of small cities quickly - places that you have never dreamed before and that was always there occupying a place that you could use with a new thing. They say that we are made of past. Sure. but we dont need to keep every single detail - good or bad - of this inside of us. Or maybe we should... who knows...? Anyway I dont like to keep anything for so long.

I have to training more the right side of my brain to be stronger than the left one, free my shoulders and surrender.

Deleting Virus...

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Stuck at the same step
trying to delete what is useless inside of her.
Should she delete herself?

Deleting virus...

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Scanning...

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Deleting files...

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From The Dust We Came, To The Dust We All Shall Return

Internet - The Humanity's Greatest Invention

A despite of all crazy things that can happen in internet it is still the greatest invention of the humanity.

Be aware in Internet!

Although I have hidden my comments I can show them at any time by re-selecting "Show". So just I can delete them or keep them and NO ONE ELSE. The address of my blog is only visible to my friends where the same person who sent me all those messages took it. Steal passwords and take details of someone in the list of the stolen person is criminal. Mainly to make use of these informations to harass people in internet.

"The Connecticut Computer Crimes Task Force was formed in March 2003 to investigate crimes occurring over the Internet. These crimes include computer intrusion, Internet fraud, on-line crimes against children, copyright violations, and Internet threats or harassment. The Task Force includes agents from the Federal Bureau of Investigation, the U.S. Postal Inspection Service, the Connecticut State Police, the Connecticut"

Source: Federal Bureau of Investigation - FBI

Man Sentenced for Internet Harassment

South Carolina Man Sentenced In First Federal Prosecution Of Internet Harassment

From Federal Bureau of Investigations, for About.com

Filed In: Online Safety

James Robert Murphy, 38, of Columbia, South Carolina, was sentenced to 5 years of probation, 500 hours of community service, and more than $12,000 in restitution today for two counts of Use of a Telecommunications Device (the internet) with Intent to Annoy, Abuse, Threaten or Harass.

Murphy was indicted in April 2004, for sending harassing emails to Seattle resident Joelle Ligon and to other employees of the City of Seattle. He pleaded guilty to two counts in June 2004. In sentencing Murphy, U.S. District Court Judge Thomas Zilly told Murphy he "...did not demonstrate the type of remorse he should under the circumstances."

In his plea agreement, Murphy admitted he had a sporadic romantic relationship with Ligon from 1984-1990. In May of 2002, Murphy began sending dozens of uninvited and harassing emails and facsimile (fax) messages to Ligon and her co-workers. Murphy hid his identity with special email programs and created the "Anti Joelle Fan Club" (AJFC) and repeatedly sent threatening emails from this alleged group.

Murphy disseminated false information about Ligon's background to her co-workers. The harassment escalated over time, with Murphy sending pornographic material and making it appear that Ligon was sending the pornographic material to her co-workers at the City of Seattle. Even after Ligon was able to identify the person harassing her and get a court order barring contact, Murphy violated the order by sending an email denying he was the harasser.

No Remorse From Murphy

In court, Murphy told the Judge what he did was "stupid, hurtful and just plain wrong. I was going though a bad patch in my life. I want to take my lumps and get on with life."

In sentencing Murphy Judge Zilly noted that he was surprised that Murphy "made no effort to indicate your remorse to the victim, to indicate you were sorry." The Judge noted that he had received a letter from Joelle Ligon unlike any he had ever received from a crime victim.

In it Ligon asked the Judge to impose "an effective and compassionate sentence." Judge Zilly decided to impose 500 hours of community service instead of the 160 hours requested by the government. He ordered Murphy to pay $12,297.23 to the City of Seattle to compensate the City for 160 hours of work time lost by employees dealing with the harassment.

Task Force Targets Cyber Crime

This case was investigated by the Northwest Cyber Crime Task Force, composed of the FBI, United States Secret Service, Internal Revenue Service, Seattle Police Department, and Washington State Patrol. The NWCCTF investigates Cyber-related violations including criminal computer intrusions, intellectual property theft, child pornography and internet fraud.

The Task Force brings federal, state and local law enforcement agencies together to share intelligence and conduct joint investigations.

This case is believed to be the first federal prosecution of cyber harassment in the United States. Assistant United States Attorney Kathryn A. Warma is prosecuting the case.

Source: About.com from FBI

"When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun.
Then, you grow up and learn to be cautious.
You could break a bone or a heart.
You look before you leap and sometimes
you don't leap at all because
there's not always someone there to catch you.
And in life, there's no safety net.
When did it stop being fun and start being scary?"

Maybe some women aren´t meant to be tamed.
Maybe they just need to run free
til they find someone just as wild to run with them...

And while you dont find the one,
better running alone.

Keep holding on
When my brain's tickin' like a bomb
Guess the black thoughts have come Again to get me
Sweet bitter words
Unlike nothing I have heard
Sing along mocking bird
You don't affect me

That's right
Deliverance of my heart
Please strike
Be deliberate

Wait
I'm coming undone
Irate
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
One looks so strong
So delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
One looks so strong
So delicate

Choke choke again
I thought my demons were my friends
Getting me in the end
They're out to get me
Since I was young
I've tasted sorrow on my tongue
And this sweet sugar gun
Does not protect me

That's right
Trigger between my eyes
Please strike
Make it quick now

I'm trying to hold it together
Head is lighter than a feather
Looks like i'm not getting better
Not getting better

..............

Up and down she goes
Between heaven and hell
Someday it will be over
She will be finally free

Times to times I like to make a review about how started my blog and how it is now. A professor of Theater Arts once said that all story starts with an "order", goes to the chaos to later be back to the "order" again. It is like a kind of parable with its concavity turned down. But life I think is like an elliptical or circular line: never ends. And to Everything that has a beginning has an end and to every end has a new beggining (btw I like Matrix quotes! in italic is from The Matrix Revolutions - 2003)

I started it simple. I was always losing all my papers. Net would be a good place to keep it and with images! I would never draw such images. Words and images are the perfect match sometimes. Others is better just write some few words or show just an image. It depends on how we are feeling. My intention was writing my book about net relations. But suddenly I was having fun writing about me, what I was doing or anything else.

I have mails (I keep it all!), chats, photos etc. It would be enough to design how people behave themselves on net. Sometimes the most brave one in net is a skinny and timid person in real, or a coward one.

I had my apex here - " bloggingly" talking. Each story had its ending. And I could find some answers while writing. It is a good exercise to check how is working your thought line and just few people could understand what I said. As my friend Shashi and Traveller, and both from IIT! You have to be really a nerd to be there! lol But I am not that clever. With time till the most simple people can be a wise one. Im not wise though.

My journey didnt end yet. But it passed from the middle and everything is getting to that point when everything is so easy to understand. Well.. maybe Im close to the end. And when I leave I will go in peace. I fixed what was wrong, I accepted what I couldnt change and I have forgiven/forgive my enemies - if I had or have any. But I still laugh of the anger of some people. Anger is so useless .. unless you use it to move on and turn bad things into good ones. This is a positive way to use the anger. All feelings are good. Depends on how you use it. I walked a long way till I learn to manage my anger.

We never stop learning.

Sometimes we need more time to understand what is going on. Someone once said to me: "I dont know why people lie. Tell the truth is so easier!" The truth can be painful but more painful is find out later that all that were only lies. I despise liers, betrayers and cowards. Cause they are all the same.

But the most unbelievable is that we all came from the same beggining. When everything was only a chaos, everything was just one thing. So much later came the universe as we know now. So, humans and stars have something in common. It could be the most poetic thing but as exist darkness and light, also exist people really opposite to the other ones. Some are good, cheerful and shine. Others are evil, envolving, that take you to the other side if you are not strong enough to resist.

I gave up of such people a long time ago. But sometimes - as I am a human being - I do mistakes in my observation. But sooner or later truth always shows up. And so it is so easier to let it all behind.

Pirate I Will Always Be

This is me

As I used to be.
I had a ship to command
I was always trying a new brand
A lot of treasures, you see
That I've got over the seas
Now my soul is a prisioner
In a body different than mine
But someday I will be back
To take back again
My pirate empire.

Taz

The Kick

The Paradoxical Commandments

by Dr. Kent M. Keith

1. People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered.
   Love them anyway.
   
2. If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.
   Do good anyway.
   
3. If you are successful, you win false friends and true enemies.
   Succeed anyway.
   
4. The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
   Do good anyway.
   
5. Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
   Be honest and frank anyway.
   
6. The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds.
   Think big anyway.
   
7. People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs.
   Fight for a few underdogs anyway.
   
8. What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
   Build anyway.
   
9. People really need help but may attack you if you do help them.
   Help people anyway.
   
10. Give the world the best you have and you'll get kicked in the teeth.
    Give the world the best you have anyway.

and finally the lion ate the bird. it didnt take too long, did it?

All things we like and love could be eternal so we would have all the time to get them. Time is eternal itself but not the things that live under its domain. And someday I will not be here anymore as any else I know. And If I leave this life before you, you will never find me again. Would you miss me? Would you think that you wasted your time waiting for the right time? Would you regret to dont have met me?
I dont know why people waste their time. Or maybe they are not interested enough to make it works.

Suddenly she noticed what she was: a little bird with a small heart beating fast for someone. But he was from another specie. How come a bird could love a lion? Even a simple friendship between a bird and a lion is not possible: someday the instinct would speak louder and the lion will eat the bird.

Kiss me

With a big smile on her face, she went to sleep happy
She could see and almost touch her twin soul
Al the pain was gone
Her heart was in peace
Like a beautiful sunny day.
She was red again.

Jeg elsker deg.

Happy New Year

The First Day

Feeling alone in a vast universe.
Looking around she can see how she loves life.
It was never a corresponded love
but what could she do?
She would ever love the colours,
the sounds,
the wind....
that flows through her hairs
and bring her memories
of something that she would never had
but how she miss it!

Inside her soul plays a beautiful song
that fulfill her heart with love and passion
but cant fulfill her loneliness.

As a soul in her farewell
she was sad because her mom would never love her,
happy to have been reconnected with her daughter,
glad that her son would be a pratical man
and in bliss cause she have found the man of her life,
although she knows
that she'd never meet him.