Sunshine

I have found a video that a guy did for her gf. Cute and fun. But it opened a door to a place that a long time I wasnt visiting: my own heart.

A simple song made me cry like a baby. I dont know if it is something from the memory or for a lack of something. All I know is that all I got in my life doesnt belong to me.. belongs to the world. Im just a way to make things alive or take a form.

I loved so much the Life.. and I still do. But as I said once.. it was never a corresponded love. Life for me was always a party for what I was not invited. But I didnt notice this when I was younger.. just now when I look back. And many other things Im started to understand now. I guess I was always protected for a kind of Superior force. If I had noticed all this before it would have been hit me deeply. Now is only history.

God bless everyone.

Aliens

"You may not believe it, but there are people who go through life with very little friction or distress. They dress well, eat well, sleep well. They are contented with their family life. They have moments of grief but all in all they are undisturbed and often feel very good. And when they die it is an easy death, usually in their sleep. I am not one of them. Oh no, I am not one of them, I am not even near to being one of them. They are there and I am HERE".

The Aliens by Charles Bukowski