We all have priorities in life, even that it means to give up of our dreams. I dont know still if I'll have to give up of all my dreams. Yes.. I Have found out that I still have some. But to move on it means leave the past, deleting useless things and just carry on the results to make us a better person and have that big and sincere smile on the face. I know that it is impossible to forget some of the worst experiences in our lives but we have to be opened to receive a new reality to find what is the best in us.

I hate anesthetics. But there is something wrong.. so wrong that I needed a professional to help me out. Depression doesnt go by itself. Sadness can pass away but a deep depression is awful. It changes who you are. I started again to take a medecine to quit this dicease. It seems that it wont have a cure. For so long Im feeling weird and bad experiences made it come out again. Well..I had the illusion that I was fealed. I was wrong. The doctor said that I will need at least 2 weeks to start feeling the effects of the medecine. At the same time Im doing many things to keep me busy. Gosh.. Im so cold inside as never before. I dont know why I have the impression that deep inside I still have some hope. Hope of what.. i dont know exactly.

Money, fake friends, we can get anytime. I just need to catch myself again and look around and realize that it is real.

So far away she goes. She doesnt know exactly where but she keeps going on. She cant stop. Die inside is the real death.

God, keep me alive. You never failed with me. But what or who God is? Let me find my star part inside of me again and shine again with a big smile.. whatever happens.

I dont mind if someone cares or not about me. I just want to meet myself again...whoever I'll be after all this.