..turning to u..

..t and t..walking together again..

hi my angry lov.. ;)

u were always by my side..
when i needed..
when i was confuse..
and u never put me down..
u just tell me lovely words..
u write me lov letters..
and fill me up with ur lov..
then..

..i turn to you..

when i'm lost in the rain
in your eyes i know i'll find the light to light my way
when i'm scared, losing ground
when my world is going crazy, you can turn it all around
and when i'm down you're there pushing me to the top
you're always there giving me all you've got
for a shield from the storm
for a friend for a love
to keep me safe and warm
i turn to you...

for the strength to be strong
for the will to carry on
for everything you do
for everything that's true
i turn to you..

when i lose the will to win
i just reach for you and i can reach the sky again.
i can do anything
'cause your love is so amazing
'cause your love inspires me.
and when i need a friend, you're always on my side
giving me faith taking me through the night.

for a shield from the storm
for a friend for a love
to keep me safe and warm
i turn to you.

for the arms to be my shelter through all the rain
for truth that will never change
for someone to lean on
for a heart I can rely on through anything
for that one who I can run to
for a shield from the storm
for a friend
for a love
to keep me safe and warm
i turn to you...

lov u 2 t..


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2005. It seems was yesterday. "What have I become? Everyone I know goes away in the end." I was a dreamer, sweet, happy. Before sleeping I used to look to the stars and imagine other worlds. It was nice share this moments with my daughter when she was still a little girl. My life had always music as background since the moment I opened my eyes till I sleep. I had a lot of friends, I used to hang out with them and I was always laughing. I used to dance, to draw, write read and travel anytime was possible. When my childrem came, my life was complete. All the problems I came through didnt mean nothing worth to be sad or something. Only after being beaten by life for so many times I started changing. But this change only started in 2005. At the beginning I didnt understand. I couldnt believe that, in fact, I was alone. Where was the God I always believed? I had always so many chances and oportunities and suddenly, it was only silence. I never took a revenge in my life, but for the first time, I did it. It makes me think: who am I? Or better.. in what did I become? Have I to step back and start from the part I stopped being me? I dont know. I feel like a prisoner... of what? I want my soul back. I just dont know the way to get it.

i remember..in 13 august i posted at the first time in my blog..but everything begun in july..2004..and i was still looking for a good story..

since i was so young i thought to be an architet or a writer..i was always drawing plans of houses, apartments, or imagining a condominium in Buzios - a so beautiful place here with so wonderful 23 beaches. i already created a name to this condominium that would be like a city..Sunset City..or something like that..but "write" for me it was ever a passion..words are so powerful!! u can save or destroy someone with words..

i wrote abt many things..emotions..feelings..places..travels i did..people i know..unknown people..angels and daimons..nature fources..personages from mitology..from history..and love letters for friends who wanted to impress someone..hehhee

i dont know when or if ill finish my book..anyway for a while im making friends...

at the beggining here i started writing in portuguese just for me..and i traveled a lot in my mind..remembering my life or writing abt my experiences in these days..

i remembered all my happy days..i remembered when my doughter borned..it was an incredible feeling!!..i couldnt believe that the baby i carried inside me now was in my hands!! ;)..and my lil boy..so hairy and fatty!! :)..nights without sleep..well..moms dont sleep..they just take care abt their sons sleep..

my quick thoughts doesnt allow me to catch them..i c my life in a quick motion..i remember all these afternoons with my friends and family around the swiming pool..my motorbike..my horse scooby..me walking in the rain..travelling by train with a bag in my back in europe..friends i did..friends ill never met..friends i hav..me working in spain..me looking to the stars and thinking how could be life outside there...me jumping from somewhere.. (i like to jump..humm..i always jump with my eyes opened..) my first kiss..my first lov..my last lov...u...just forget it baby...me alone in a hotel writing my blog waiting for a business meeting..my childhood..my mom always angry and my dad telling me stories to sleep..(how i loved him..)...climbing a mountain..feeling so cold..and running in that big accident there..the unforgetable sound of these helicopters..the relief when i took a hot coffee in a warm house..and my tears for my lost friends there..how cold can be life sometimes..it makes u grow up so fast..

in last mounths trying to get something interesting to my book i learned many things abt people and abt myself..good and no good things..and i discovered how weak i still can be..how i still could be hurted..and how i still can lov..wow..thats is the great part!! i can lov again!! but i thought i had found my treasure..i thought i could believe in that..i thought i could be happy with that..but the only one thing i got was be hurted..yes.. i went so deep..nothing for me is medium...relax..at the end everyhitng will be ok..no pain..no gain..but y do we need to learn some things in life by pain??

in these black pages theres a story of someone who ever looked for something so special..and she is still looking for that..

im a dreamer..thats y i always can be recover myself..i always believe in better days even when nobody believes that..when i close my eyes i can c how im happy..i hav a strong fource inside of me that always gets me up when i think i cant do it by myself..

do u wanna live forever?? i do..even in a blog...
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..good bye mr. vain..

do u really think u got me?? u r completely WRONG mr vain..

Call him Mr. Raider call him Mr. Wrong call him Mr. Vain
Call him Mr. Raider call him Mr. Wrong call him insane
He'd say: "I know what I want and I want it now I want you cause I'm Mr. Vain.."

"Call me Mr. Raider call me Mr. Wrong call me insane call me Mr. Vain call me what you like as long as you call me time and again fell the presence of the aura of the man none to compare loveless dying for a chance just to touch a hand or a moment to share can't deny the urge that makes them want to lose themselves to the debonair one hold me back the simple fact is that i'm all that and i'm always near one sexy can't perplex me now you know who'r a was if you didn't know before I know what I want and I want it now I want you then I want a little more.."

Call him Mr. Raider call him Mr. Wrong call him Mr. Vain
Call him Mr. Raider call him Mr. Wrong call him insane
He'd say: "I know what I want and I want it now I want you cause I'm Mr. Vain.."

"Girls are all over the world they hope and pray and die for man like me cause I'm the one begotten son that breaks the mould get a look at male epitome style has never seen that makes you want to grab and hold and squeeze real tight whose gonna be the one to save you from yourself when you wanna take a bite please oh baby please you beg you want to stay you got to get some caught up in the charm that I laid on thick and now there's nowhere to run just another fish to fit the worm on the hook of my line yeah I keep many females longing for a chance to win my heart with s-e-x and plenty"

soo..gooood bye mr. vain..:))..I do the RULES in MY game!!..u r OUT of MY world!! and at this time..4 EVER..:))))))))))))..

..awwwwwwwww..i forgot to say.."honey" :P..hahhahhaaaa

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here i go...
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..shine honey..

something is happening..something is changing..

today it was a so much important day for me..i started in a new way..a right way..i know it will be not so easy..i came from another culture and religion..but ill do my best..

remember when u were young??
u shone like the sun..
shine on u crazy diamond..

i found my way..
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...hmmm..good morning...

well..Carnaval is finished..back to reality..hummm..im so lazy ;)..but i still going put more pics here..working a lot again..and i lov to work!!! and talking abt Carnaval..my hearts school WON!!!..Beija-Flor!! i already went there and my fantasy was..a journal..hahaaaa..at least it was not strange 4 me :P...but its an old pic..im gonna find that and publish here..someday.. :)) ..c ya!!!
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goooooooooooood morniiiiiiiiing!! thats me!!!..taking my breakfast in a library close to my house..called Letras e Expressões..im awful!! but u know that im better than this..hhahaaaaa..sorry if i cant put more pics here..i hav no time!!!..in this Carnaval im out almost my whole time!! we can feel so much fun in the air!! the beaches r so full and most of people doesnt work these days..
im waiting for thursday..just some friends knows abt that!! pray 4 me buddies..im on a right way now..c ya latezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..tata 4 now!! hahhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..ahan..nice..;)
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well..i got out with my bike in the morning..after to take my breakfast at that library..look at me awful again....hahaaaaa..i was in Francisco Otaviano street..it makes the connection between Ipanema and Copacabana beach..
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well..u really can recognize a tourist...
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sounds tracks..high potency..12.000 watts..minimum!! just for fun at night!!!...wowwwww
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on the beach street in Ipanema i found this incredible group!! all Carnaval they play in the street..by the beach..this differents instruments and drums also...man..women..young and old people together in perfect harmony!!!
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they r fantastic!! really kool..thats one of the reasons of all tourist when come here wants to live in my town...awwwwww
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u need to protect urself mam..bye a hat..:))
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just tonight my pc was fixed..but msn didnt worrrrrrrrk!!! how to talk with so many friends at the same time?? by phone its impossible!!!..hummm..then..i blog this!!..c ya buddies!! im gonna put more pics here..latezzzzzzzzzzzzz...:))

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goddd mooooooooooooorrning!!!

hellooooooooooooooo!! im here to tell more things abt my city in these days..through the pics taken by myself..heheee..

look at the trafic!! nobody can pass..
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tipical brasilian food came from the africans..the name is acarajé..in Bahia - another state - is so usual to eat..if u want with ppepper say..i want it HOT..(quente)..but..take care!! it is really HOOOTT..hhhahaaaaa...
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corner of Prudente de Moraes and Vinicius de Moraes streets..look..the couple is kissing..so common here when two person r falling in lov..
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Garota de Ipanema Restaurant..here Vinicius de Moraes and Tom Jobim composed the song Girl from Ipanema..
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..gooooooood mooooooooooorniiiiiiiiiiiing!!!...

in the morning...

goooood mooooorniiiiiing buddieeeeeeees!!! i just woke up and i turned on my pc..it was raining a lot!! but the carnival party is outside there!!! i could hear the musics from my home..and the people singing as well...
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ready to work!!

i went to work...but not before to c my mails..and chat...and fight..and laugh with some friends..hhahahaaa...and the music out there was going on..sketoon..sketoon..zeregidoon..
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taking my first pic with my cell..at the shop...

i took so much time to arrived at the shop!! the trafic was terrific!!!!!!!..by the beach just one way was opened..on the street people wearing shorts..t-shirts..all colorful..
when i a was in the shop i took some pics..from my cell..at the first time i bought a nice cell to me..i never care abt that..but now with all these tecnologies..i could not to be out of that..hehhee
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my lovely girls!! i lov u!!!

and those r some of my friends..not everybody worked today..its holiday..carnival!!
they r my friends..my partners..my sweet girls!!! what a difference u made in my life!! all u with strongs personalities..wow..but so nice and kool and funny also..hhahaha..i really lov ya pretties!!!

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