My best friend

After losing everything just you is still by my side even so far. Keeping the dream that someday there wont be any differences between us is something that makes me feel alive. And when everything is going wrong I can close my eyes and dream again. We dont belong to this place and we know that. But someday we will be together forever.

Far From Home.. - an offline message to Shashi -

Goodbye: i thought u have forgotten me.. i was just opening gmail and you dont send me messages from ages
GoodBye: im far from home with different people..really different among themselves
GoodBye: people that i would never talk in a normal situation
GoodBye: i like to talk but living together is completelly different
GoodBye: how much i miss u and our talks
GoodBye: when i could hear the monkeys and dream that i was just a kid
GoodBye: i will never grow up..i will ever hide this kid inside of me
GoodBye: but all this is a learning
GoodBye: a dificult learning to a proud person as me
GoodBye: im learning that i like to be right all the time, that im too proud
GoodBye: and that i needed to see that a long time ago..i didnt notice how bad i am and how much i need to learn
GoodBye: im so tired of myself
GoodBye: i will never forget you

Porcelain

" How much I miss you.....but when I miss you a lot I go back and read our past chats and smile and react and think...and all those days just come up alive....cant believe they are dead now...cant believe that even right now what i am writing it would be dead after some time...and l look at your pics..try to recall what i was thinking at that instant....spend hours on that...."

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"She has surprised me more than anyone in my life, the more I know her the more enchanted I grow by her. She is the closest to a fairy you might come across....the best person I have ever met in my life."
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You too my cute Shashi.
All the time it was always there
And I didnt even notice.
Just now I see
You were always part of me.

Love forever,
Porcupine.

L & L

goobye

The Friend I Never Met

Thank you Shashi..

you know who I am since the beginning..

september 25, 2005.

We had a lot of fights but something you have teached to me...

when we are a true friend this feeling never dies.

Thank you for accepting me as I am..

thank you for respecting my age,

my thoughts

and for making me feel stupid sometimes.

But this is called friendship as well.

And thank you for your sincerity

that I couldnt understand in that time.

You were just being realistic.

It makes me see the reality as it is.

Sometimes it still hurts but I can handle it.

I wanted to be happy

I wanted to be loved

I wanted many things

And if they have happened or not

I dont know a happy end.

We are in oposit times of our lives

but I will always remember you..

and my kids

the best part of my life.

This song is for you..
my friend that I've never met....

Who knows if someday we will meet in other dimension?!

It would be funny :)

See ya there sweetheart :P