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just be like butterflies..that just liv two days and spread life in their way....with no expectations..
life is very short..
nothing is forever..
n u know that........

ur heart is still on fire..or its burning??
hey pirate..u know..theres no port for ya..
when u think u found a way..
it is already lost..

sorry for everything..ill find wot im looking for..and thnx a lot for ur advices..u r always right..

n later i did flamenco ballet just becoz i loved to see that gipsy dancing in barrio Santa Cruz..in Barcelone..Spain..really amazing!!

like..on the palais du versailles garden..for wot did u need me in that pic??..well..that pic wasnt really a big deal..:P

i wanted always take just monuments pics..but u were always saying..stay there!!..hmm..i hated it! :P..

our fav was to get a car and be lost on the road..well..not so lost..here we in a rented car in Ibiza..Spain..going to another beach..

it was kool when we went to Foz do Iguaçu..in south of brasil..the pilot was so crazy..always diving among those water falls..

at the beggining we were always travelling together..n..in that day we laugh a lot with a japanese group..happy days sweetheart..thanx a lot..

...opening memories box..two..

hey..walter! thas our pic..dont u remember how did everything begin??..we met each other in a birthday party..and u invite me to dance..n u step on my foot 3 times!! :o..anyway..here we r..in our wedding day..i remember that now becoz..i saw u in these days and..how old u r now..hehe..i dont know if ull hav time to open ma blog and see it..u r so important now..still just thinking abt money..the agency is so big now..u hav the world in ur hands..thas y i went away..u never were with me when i needed..

now..wot are u waiting for?? waiting for someone to cross the gate?!?..u know..just as i know..that is not possible..theres so much space in someones life..ull never be the only one....
but i can giv u everything..if u believ on me..and u know..u n me..we r one

think..u dont hav much time..the gate is still opened..but not for so long.....

...27th, june...

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the gate is opening..where do u want to go?

i dont know...
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hey ... look whos here!!! dirty lil girl!! n eating chocolats .. as always .. haha
who is there?
dont u recognize me anymore??
who did open that door for you?
u did!!
me? no..i left u there..locked in that room..
u opened that door fo me ... many times ... and now im here .. to catch u again
you are crazy..just get away..
naaa... u called me!! and im here babez ... all urs!! and u r mineeee!!
awww ... wot expression on ur face ... am i scaring u??
you are a miserable person..just leave me alone..
i can feel ur breath ... ur lips so dry ... u r scaaared!!
no..im not..just get away..
hey .. u r saaaad .. haha .. i can feel that!!
j-u-s-t g-e-t a-w-a-y..
u r not fighting anymore .. hmm .. as i like .. ohooo!!
think what you want to think..im thinking..
can u tell me abt wot??
i need to decide something..
ya .. i know ... thas y im here dirty n still lil .. girl!!! .. u cant decide anything! .. and u r scared! .. u cant even decide wot is better for u!!!! .. i hav many faces .. n u can call me from diferent ways .. n ull unlock me many times .. n ill be here! .. to take u to nowhere!... kool!! .. aint it??

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why are you doing that with me again?
oh .. c'amon!!! ... im doing nothing with u .. u r!!! ..
okeizzz!! .. okeizzzzz!!! ... im getting old .. im gonna giv u a chanceee!! .. if u were able to kill me ... ull be freeeee!!!
kill you?!?
yessssssssssssssssssss .. just killing me ull win!! .. wot doesnt kill me makes me stroooongeeeeerrr...........................
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stronger......yes...

i remember...when i was a lil girl..you scaring me..you locking me in that room...so dark room.....
i saw many unimaginable things..all scary...and you were always laughing of my weakness..of my innocence beeing lost..
you stole me my dreams..and for so many nights i prayed for help..do you remember how many times i asked you to help me??...
"i cant help u"....

with your hate i learnt to be hated..with your scary face..i learnt to be scared..you beat me..and i learnt to be hurted..you did spit at me..u did vomit on my face all those bad things from you..and you locked me to dont see the light...and i never understood why..

i begun to hate you..and just then i could win you..once.....
but it was not enough..

now you come and say to kill you..
but if i kill you..you will win..not me..
and thats was your last trap..
i wont kill you..you make me survive...

you are locked in your own trap... i won.. i will 4ever..
you can stay..maybe go..i dont mind..
the most important i already know...

go.....go....go....go..fast..fast..faster..faster..
fasteeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrr....
open the gaate..open the gaaaaaate..
opeeeeeeenn the gaaaaaaaaaaaateeeeeee....
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dont close ur eyes..dont loose anything..its ur best journey..to somewhere u ever wanted to go..
u r still a lil bit afraid..aint u?? i can feel that..but..y?...ur heart is beating so fast..ur lips r in fire..and so dry..u r so awake..u r completely connected...but not to this world....relaxxxx...the most u could loose will be ur sanity..but this is already lost..didnt it?..the gate its ur only chance to live....4ever.....................................................

now..just go......to the best part of your life..........to find wot u were looking for..............................
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is there anything better than go to where our heart is??
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and remember..u can always change ur mind...theres not just one gate to be chosen....................
dont even think that u r loosing ur power if some changes happen..ull just changing ur direction..
be awake.................................................

A demoni
A de no demoni
Merissi me
Dore cari me
Omen dore
Demon ricenta
Ore meo imperi me

I'll save you from yourself
From the demons of the night
They promess fame and fortune
All that you eagerly desire

I'll save you from yourself
From those voices calling you
"Sale your soul to evil
Then you'll be dancing forever..."

Omen dore
Demon ricenta
Ore meo imperi
Aven dore
Demon ricenta
Are meo ra demon licenta


sentence - era (eric levi)

Don't you come back now?
Don't you turn your eyes?
And if you dare to look
I'll be you waiting

Impera e nessimo
Impera samie nero
Dove di immantore Dio

You hear my prayer
Don't you turn your eyes?
And if you dare to mourn
I'll be you waiting

Impera e nessimo
Impera samie nero
Dove di immantore torra

E mani diavole
E mano diavole
E nere mani diavole

Impera e nessimo
Impera samie nero
Dove di immantore Dio

Don't you come back now?
Don't you turn your eyes?
E nere mani diavole
You hear my prayer
E nere mani diavole
I'll be you waiting

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translation to english

The empire is nothing
The empire got black
Where are you, cruel God/fortress

And hands of devil
And hand of devil
And black hands of devil

cathar rhythm - era

Semper crescis
Aut decrescis
Vita detestabilis
Nunc obdurat
Et tunc curat
Ludo mentis aciem

Nunc obdurat
Et tunc curat
Ludo mentis aciem
Egestatem
Potestatem
Dissolvit ut glaciem

Divano
Divano re
Divano blessi
Divano blessia
Divano blessia
Divano
Divano re
Divano blessia
Divano blessia

Sors salutis
Et virtutis
Michi nunc contraria
Est affectus
Et defectus
Semper in angaria
Hac in hora
Sine mora
Corde pulsum tangite

Divano...

In divano

Sors salutis...

Divano...

Hac in hora
Sine mora
Corde pulsum tangite
Quod per sortem
Sternit fortem
Mecum omnes plangite

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translation to english

Always increasing
Or decreasing
The detestable life
Now difficult
And then easy
With your games sharpens

Now difficult
And then easy
With your games sharpens
Poverty
Power
Dissolves like ice

Often my health
And my virtue
Are now contrary for me
Affected
And defective
Always in torment
In this hour
without delay
Take the pulse of my heart

In this hour
Without delay
Take the pulse of my heart
Which through fate
She overthrows my strength
Weep all of you with me

the mass - era (eric levi)

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...sunday..

well..today i took the kids to c Batman..the best part was --->> i wanna c War of the Worlds!! a steven spielbergs film.. :P
i bought mega packs of popcorns and coke..and ma lil kid hit some of those popcorns on the head of the people sitting across from us.. :o..at least just i saw that..it was dark..but the hit people were looking around to see who had done that /:)..movie begun but i was waiting for action! and where was action!! action!! i need action to liiiiiiiiiiiiive!! so much bla-bla-bla..anyway i liked it..its a good way to quiet kids :D..but they were so quiet.. -as the movie- ..that ma lil son said..mom! i wanna sleep..oh mine!..and i thought he was liking!... but finally a long action scene begun..quite at the end..and ma son said..mom! i wanna make pee..oh s...! -->>(i really didnt say that..plz) k..lets go to the washroom..but quick! i dont wanna loose the best part!!.....at the end we went to macdonnalds and i tried Macnific.. a new sandwich here..with many fried potatoes and Chicken Macnuggets to my lil daughter..and Happy MacLunch to may lil son..with a toy together..u know..all those good food that improve our health :P...and i needed to take a walk to home..its not so far..but ma son asked..ow mom!..lets take a cab!..i dont wanna walk!..ahn..for sure ..he was playing with the toy that he won in Mac..

kids r the best part of someones life..u cant be sad with them..
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and ma cousin is still at the hospital..ma mom went there..they said that theres some part of the cancer that couldnt be extracted...and she knows that....

dark times..its a good time to discovered who is really a friend for ya..really friends dont run when u are in troubles..i need to thank to those friends..
as yahya..who i knew abt few days ago and he is always so good to me..like a bro..
dylan..hi messiah! u r really kool buddy..funny and deep..maybe someday ill go to canada..try to come to brasil also..
michelle..u r a really nice person..it was really good know u and be ur friend..u r always happy with ur friends happiness..and u r always here..as i am for ya..

and u ma friend dipen..who taught me to dont liv with any expectations..it was a hurt that time..but now..im really thank to u..im sad..for sure..but im not lost anymore..we walk alone..but u r always here when i need as someday u said that u would always be..i didnt trust u in that time..but i know now that u were saying me the truth..and ill always be there for ya..

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all ur life was dedicated to children..u taught them..u created a school to them..and they are like ur own children..now its ur turn to live all those dreams that u told in ur stories to all those kids..fly sweetheart.........................

i went to the hospital yesterday to see claudia..ma cousin..when i arrived..someone was doing phisioteraphy in her legs..she is in bed abt 1 month..she hold ma hands and said.."we can be so distant sometimes but we are always together in heart"..

she knows that she is dieing..but i didnt see sadness in her eyes..just a strong light..she is really strong..always was..

i begun to talk a lot..i didnt wanna cry..and we laugh a lot..remembering all those funny stories that we lived together..

how i lov u sweetheart..someday i wont see u again..u always understood me...u always understand everyone...and u are so beautiful and calm..for sure ull go to heaven to meet people like u..angels..................................................

u wont need to knock at the heavens door..it will be opened for ya.................................................................

claudia..32 years old..2 kids..raphael and philip..13 and 14 years old..and her nice husband..enzo..
she has a gr8 heart..a person with who everybody can trust..anytime...
she is a happy person..and she always help who needs..
god bless u sweetheart..wherever u go..

and at the end..u will be still together..making this world a lil bit better..but..never forget..the beggining is..in urself..

hey..but nothing so much serious..:D..smile..ya..smile and laugh with ur lov..he or she is ur best company..ur soulmate..the person who u will share ur deepiest secrets..ur tears..or..ur most funny moments :D

and be one with who u lov??

is there anything better than lov and be loved??

anyway..today is valentines day here.....

and..


is there anything better than hear something like that from the guy u lov?? just read it..thas an old song..

Be my Baby
Dirty Dancing

The night we met
I knew I needed you so
And if I had the chance
I'd never let you go
So won't you say you love me
I'll make you so proud of me
We'll make em turn their heads
Every place we go
So won't you please

Be my, be my baby
Be my litlle baby
My one and only baby
Say you'll be my darling
Be my, be my baby
Be my baby now
My one and only baby

I'll make you happy, baby
Just wait and see
For every kiss you give me
I'll give you three
Oh, since the day I saw you
I have been waiting for you
You know I will adore you
Till eternity so won't you please

hmmm......

...12 june 2005...brasil..dia dos namorados..

well..and today is valentines day here..i wish u all..boys and girls..be very happy..not just today..but always..with lov we can change this world..

but first..u need to lov urself..u need to believ on urself..no matter if u r beautiful or not..if u hav money or not..if u r clever or not..never mind abt that useless things..wot is really important is..who u really r inside of u..then..take a good care abt urself..use that lov u feel for u to improve urself..to extend ur own limits..to dream and make all those dreams come true..u can be everything u want..u can do everything u want..just believ that u r able to do wot u need to be ur best..and go as far as ur imagination can go..

man went to the moon becoz someday a "crazy" guy thought abt that..then..go ahead.. ;)

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well..next sunday..12 june..will be valentines day in ma country..its a special day here..to lovers...
who did never want to love and be loved??...


life changes when u r in lov...

and here u r..flying again..with opened heart..again..but at this time with no expectations..no fears...and if someone wants to fly with u..
will be always welcome...
but u really fly alone..
with others..
like u...........................................................................
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keep flying buddies..thats ur best and more beautiful flyght...
god bless u sweetheart..
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