Noturno

O aço dos meus olhos

E o fel das minhas palavras

Acalmaram meu silêncio

Mas deixaram suas marcas...

Se hoje sou deserto

É que eu não sabia

Que as flores com o tempo

Perdem a força

E a ventania

Vem mais forte...

Hoje só acredito

No pulsar das minhas veias

E aquela luz que havia

Em cada ponto de partida

Há muito me deixou

Há muito me deixou...

Ai, Coração alado

Desfolharei meus olhos

Nesse escuro véu

Não acredito mais

No fogo ingênuo, da paixão

São tantas ilusões

Perdidas na lembrança...

Nessa estrada

Só quem pode me seguir

Sou eu.

Sou eu.

Sou eu.
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The steel of my eyes

And the gall of my words

Calmed down my silence

But left their marks ...

If today I am desert

It is because I didn't know

That the flowers with time

Lost strength

And the torment

Comes stronger ...

Today I only believe

In the pulse of my veins

And that light that there was

At each point of departure

There is much left me

There is much left me ...

Oh, winged heart

I will deflower my eyes

In this dark veil

I do not believe anymore

In the ingenuous fire of the passion

They are so many illusions

Lost in the memory ...

On that road

Only who can follow me

That's me.

That's me.

That's me.

Chão de Giz

Eu desço dessa solidão, espalho coisas sobre um chão de giz

Há meros devaneios tolos a me torturar

Fotografias recortadas em jornais de folhas amiúde

Eu vou te jogar num pano de guardar confetes

Eu vou te jogar num pano de guardar confetes

Disparo balas de canhão, é inútil pois existe um grão-vizir

Há tantas violetas velhas sem um colibri

Queria usar quem sabe, uma camisa de força ou de vênus

Mas não vão gozar de nós apenas um cigarro

Nem vou lhe beijar gastando assim o meu batom

Agora pego um caminhão, na lona vou a nocaute outra vez

Pra sempre fui acorrentado no seu calcanhar

Meus vinte anos de "boy", "that's over, baby" , Freud explica

Não vou me sujar fumando apenas um cigarro

Nem vou lhe beijar gastando assim o meu batom

Quanto ao pano dos confetes já passou meu carnaval

E isso explica porque o sexo é assunto popular

No mais estou indo embora ...

No mais estou indo embora ...

No mais...

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my translation:

I get down from that loneliness and spread things on a floor of chalk

There are mere fool daydreams to torture me

Photos cut in leaves newspapers often

I will keep you in a cloth to keep confetti

I will keep you in a cloth to keep confetti

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I shot cannon bullets, it is useless because there is a grand-vizir

There are so many old violets without a hummingbird

I would like using - who knows -, a shirt of force or venus

But, they will not tease us only a cigarette

Neither I will kiss you spending so my lipstick.

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Now I catch a truck and I'm knocked-down again

I was bound in your heel forever

My twenty years of "boy", "that's over, baby," ... does Freud explain

I will not dirty myself for smoking just one cigarette

Neither will I kiss you spending so my lipstick

So, about the cloth of confetti my carnival has passed

And that explains why sex is a popular subject

I'm leaving...

I'm leaving...

I'm...

“I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you”
(Friedrich Nietzsche - 1844-1900)

And all you most wanted appears

And it's what you most feared too

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Ghost of Horus

Since I lost my password in Youtube I lost also many favorites. One of them was Ghost of Horus. Weird and fantastic I took 2 days to find it again cause I didnt remember the name. And in these days Im at home so I try to keep me busy.. even with a dream.

"Immortal (Ad Vitam) is the epic movie by the most talented comic & graphic novel author Enki Bilal. The film is based on the first and second part of his "Nikopol trilogy" ("La Foire aux immortels" and "La Femme piège").

The film was directed by Bilal, he also wrote scenario and all dialogues.

As a music background I (badgreendragon - user in Youtube) used the song "Reincarnation" from "Ghost in the Shell", Egyptian Gods are: Horus, Anubis and Bastet. but the video was deleted.
Main human characters are: Jill Bioskop and Alcide Nikopol."

note: you can find the song also through the name - on Youtube -

"Resurrection III-Reincarnation"

"Resurrection I-Making of Cyborg"

"Resurrection II-Ghost City"

played with few differences.

The lyrics are in ancient japanese.

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Reincarnation By Ghost In The Shell
(Ancient Japanese)

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a Ga Maeba, Kuwashime Yoini Keri

a Ga Maeba, Teru Tsuki Toyomu Nari

yobai Ni Kami Amakudarite,

yoha Ake, Nuedori Naku.

tookamiemitame

tookamiemitame

tookamiemitame
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(Translation)

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when You Are Dancing, A Beautiful Lady Become drunken.

when You Are Dancing, A Shining Moon Rings.

a God Descends For A Wedding,

And Dawn Approaches while The Night Bird Sings.

god Bless You

god Bless You

god Bless You

...

would you forget whom you love?

Just an Illusion

..and when you think you have found an answer, it was not an answer..it was just an illusion...

Depression

Many things can trigger debilitating depression. Feelings of depression are caused by a chemical change that affects how the brain functions.
A normally functioning brain is a giant messaging system that controls everything from your heartbeat, to walking, to your emotions. The brain is made up of billions of nerve cells called neurons. These neurons send and receive messages from the rest of your body, using brain chemicals called neurotransmitters.

These brain chemicals—in varying amounts—are responsible for our emotional state. Depression happens when these chemical messages aren’t delivered correctly between brain cells, disrupting communication.

Think of a telephone: if your phone has a weak signal, you may not hear the person on the other end. Their communication is muted or unclear.

The good news is that there are many forms of treatment that can help you cope with depression, including medications that can strengthen weak signals by raising the levels of certain neurotransmitters, or by improving the neurons’ ability to process signals. This ensures that the brain’s vital messages are delivered—loud and clear.

If you notice that your son, daughter, your brother, sister, parents, a friend, are acting different, being isolated of all people, with sad eyes looking to nowhere, talk to them, show them your love and take them to a doctor.

You can save a life.

see an animation about how it works: http://www.depression.com/depression_animation.html?content=understanding&

note: article published by http://www.depression.com/

Gold Passion

It is not easy to look for what you dont even know what it is. Or maybe you do. Wanna change? It is like an old disease..for so long in your body that now you cant take it off. The only way to survive is changing. Why is this so diffcult to get at this time?


Like if you're walking down to your car one day

As your imagination wanders off

And you see yourself just standing there

While people are showing you all kinds of strange directions

And that's when it comes to you

"I'll walk my way thorugh suburbia"

Through the streets of ten thousand kelvins

Empty trash cans and five foot fences

Soul - Like I have one

Control - As if I had some

10:15 PM and I'm crossing the main road

In hope of finding the last person that makes sense to me

I realize that I've been had and walk faster as my frustration grows

Nothing will ever change around here

People pay good money to avoid any change in colour

Everything is black and white

To hell with these shades of gray

Soul - like I had one

Control - as if I had some

The Gate

Oh my.. another gate?! I thought I would go to the stars now! I don't want to be here anymore. Take me away!
The secret is not in the stars my dear. First you need to dive within yourself.
But what is there inside of me? I already know and I don't want to go!!
There you will find the universe.
I don't have such beautiful things inside of me.. mainly a whole universe!
Dive. I will be waiting for you there.
Nooo!!! You won't! Nobody waits for anybody!!!
I didn't tell you that it would be easy. You have to go.
Will I die?

Sure you will. To re-birth you need to die first.

The Invisible Battle

"You see, God and the Devil are just alike.

They are both

walking up and down the earth -- they are both seeking you.

God wants you to glorify Him, and, of course,

the Devil wants you to glorify him.

They are both looking at you,

and if God doesn't get you,

THE DEVIL WILLLL..."

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(Ozzy - 6/9/2005)
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Rho Ophiuchi

"Rho Oph is a complex made up of a large main cloud

of molecular hydrogen,

a key molecule allowing new stars to form from cold cosmic gas,

with two long streamers trailing off in different directions.

Recent studies using the latest X-ray and infrared observations

reveal more than 300 young stellar objects

within the large central cloud.

Their median age is only 300,000 years,

very young compared to some of the universe's oldest stars,

which are more than 12 billion years old. "

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It's Carnival In Brazil!!!

The most incredible party of this planet!!!!

You should come and check it by yourself!!!

I couldnt write before but Carnival started on Saturday, February 2th! I talked about Carnival some time back and I'm gonna paste the link cause there's a whole history about Brazilian Carnival there.

http://www.madmaktub.com/2005/01/thats-carnaval.html

But THIS is the spirit. Brazilians say that the year just begins to after Carnival, mainly in Rio de Janeiro and Bahia!!! lool

But Carnival is not just some days off. Carnival is time for business too. A School of Samba prepares its parade the whole year and this is an incredible work who brings a lot of tourists for our country!

You dont need to be a beauty

but need to have just ONE and important thing:

JOY!!!

Joy to be there

Joy to be yourself

Joy to be other self just for some days

Joy to wash your sorrows and pain away

Joy to be alive...

even for some days!

The Divas of Brazilian Carnival 2008!!!

Always a bit polemic the Schools of Samba brings sometimes

some of our problems like we dont have freedom to express ourselves (at the fist pic), corruption, world problems etc..

But the top of this party is always the work of a zillions people behind the scenes, the bright, the light , the people and sure, all those beauties. How I hate them! lool!!! They are incredible beautiful and happy! God bless you girls!

And God Bless Brazilians! We are survivers! And the smile we keep on our faces represents our way to live! Cheers!!!

And the party is still ON!!!

note: photos from O Globo Online (the biggest Brazilian newspaper)- all rights reserved.

and the percussinists are always training.... Mocidade Alegre

and training all over the year.. now Portela!

New Year

The year started as any other day. In a distant land she looked to the sky. There was nothing different. Looking around she couldnt find anything to make her feel something. But she was not sad. She was grateful to God to come to her heart again. It was not too bad walking alone cause she was not alone anyway.

She remembered that one day she was in the dark - in the darkness of her soul. She was taking shower and her tears and the water was the same thing. "Please help me" - she asks. At the same day someone came and started to talk abt good and evil. And the person described someone who wanted to jump from a high place to the darkness. She recognized herself in those words and she knew that was God talking to her through that person. Suddenly she felt that the pain in her back was gone. She could breath as before. Finally she started to believe again.

Where are you now? Once you told me that you would never leave me. Or maybe it was just my thoughts. Im knocking at your door but you dont respond. Save me please. Open the gate again for me. I can see the lights but I cant feel them. Im stuck at your door.

Let me get in.

Somewhere....

Walking alone in a small and desert city and buying some beers. Everything around was in silence. I could hear the noise of my steps. If it was in my own city I wouldnt be on the street - mainly alone. I dont like to drink alone but I need to relax today.

Inside a feeling of beeing out of reality. Everybody is gone. Just two of us are here at the same hotel. Tomorrow will be only me.

I miss my family, my kids. But I cant come back. Not now. After all those changes that are still on I dont know what I am. They wouldnt be proud of me now.

When we are weak nobody loves you, nobody wants you, nobody needs you. When you are weak you are easier to let others use you. I've learned with time that just the ones who are with you in those difficult times will be the ones who will be with you forever (a despite of knowing that nothing is forever anyway). Till now I didnt find anyone like that. Not in my real life... well.. maybe my ex-husband. He does what he can. I guess he has his own life now..a family.. I dont know. He never talk abt this with me.

But what I am talking about is a real friend. That one who feels what you are feeling without you say any word. Anyways, I use to isolate myself when Im not fine.

Is common when we feel like that we start thinking abt past and all those possibilities that never happened.. or never will. Im just trying to keep me sane. But I cant avoid to think that I have some of old ghosts of my childhood now. They say that life is repetitive..thats it. The true is: Im feeling lost. I cant get even to look into others eyes. Im afraid that they find out that Im lost. What is this now? Is it not enough all these years? Since 2005 I cant control my life. Or maybe just now Im minding it.

Im starting to feel sleepy now. But Im not calm down. I need to go to somewhere.. I just dont know where exactly. Im alone. I dont see anything interesting in people anymore even feeling sometimes that they are humans like me. All my life just to check that life is only this.

...and without saying a word he left. For him it was nothing. For her.. well, it will be too.

Merry X-mas! :)