Thursday, September 13, 2007

If...


And talking about dreams, faith...

I remember when I was so strong even being lonely.

Once, when I got out of my work, I look to the stars and I thought:

"Incredible! Zillions of stars and no one touch us.

Billions of people and no one for me.

How I'd wish to find my twin soul...."

I guess that in that day angels was around me

and they said "Amen"

cause when I got home I received a message.

With a big smile on my face I answered it..

and has started a wonderful time.

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We never know what we are looking for..

till we find.

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This is the first song he sent for me.

He used to like mostly rock..

so receiving this song were twice special for me.

And everytime I hear this music I feel like coming back to past..

I can close my eyes and feel everything again.

But as everything..it finished.



Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Home

Today I was feeling wierd..something like a fever and some pain. I guess Im getting a flu. So I decided to come back home and rest. In the middle of the way I decided walking a bit. So, I started looking to the windows of all those little malls we have in Ipanema. So a fat man came and started talking to me and I was not like talking to anyone. So, he said some weird things for me. I didnt notice that he was mad and a lady was taking care of him. As I didnt care he said: "You are ugly!" And I replyed: "So..are you handsome???" And he said (a bit confuse and caring his "tummy"): "Im a bit..." It was funny..but I was not into laugh at all.
Well they say that we are atracted by people who are similar to us..am I getting mad too?? I took a look to see where was the man and he was continuing to talk with all people on the street and saying things like that. And I kept looking to the windows automatically. I was not atracted by anything.
Later I noticed a couple discussing. The man left the woman alone and started walking to the other side..but he stopped when he noticed that she was stuck on the same place...like about to cry. I could see love..a hurt love between them. I was about to say to her..never mind..nothing will change the human nature..so..what is all for? But I couldnt do it..who knows what was really happening?
Lost in my thoughts I realized that I dont care about most of things in this life anymore. And going back home was meaning just come to rest and be in silence for sometime. Am I a special cause that? How many people in this world have a place to - at least - sleep comfortable?
But the problem is not the bed..is me. I feel that I dont belong to anywhere.
When I arrived at home I opened my mails and I received a message of a beautiful soul who sent me this song. I couldnt post the video cause the code was desabled by request. But is a beautiful one that reminds me when I had some faith or dreams... and when come back home had a special meaning to me.
Now back home maybe is be back to the beggining..from the place we came since the first human..and who knows where is it........?




I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.
Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.
The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, it makes true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.
So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.
Be careful what you wish for,
Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.
Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old,

So I'm going home.

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but..


where "home" is?

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Thursday, September 06, 2007

BRAVO PAVAROTTI! R.I.P





Miserere, miserere
Miserere, misero me
Pero brindo alla vita!

Ma che mistero, e la mia vita
Che mistero
Sono un peccatore dell'anno ottantamila
Un menzognero!
Ma dove sono e cosa faccio
Come vivo?

Vivo nell'anima del mondo
Perso nel vivere profondo!
Miserere, misero me
Pero brindo alla vita!

Io sono il santo che ti ha tradito
Quando eri solo
E vivo altrove e osservo il mondo
Dal cielo
E vedo il mare e le foreste
Vedo me che....

Vivo nell'anima del mondo
Perso nel vivere profondo!

Miserere, misero me
Pero brindo alla vita!

Se c'e una notte buia abbastanza
Da nascondermi, nascondermi

Se c'e una luce, una speranza
Sole magnifico che splendi dentro di me
Dammi la gioia di vivere che ancora non c'e

Miserere, miserere
Quella gioia di vivere(che forse)
Ancora non c'e...






Misery, misery,
Misery, miserable me
But I drink a toast to life!



What a mistery is my life, what a mistery
I'm a sinner since 80000 years ago
An untrue one!

But where am I, what do I do
How do I live?

I live in the soul of the world
Lost in a deep living!

Misery, miserable me
But I toast to the life!

I am the saint who'd betrayed you
When you were alone
I live elsewhere and I observe the world
From the sky
I see the sea and the forests
I see myself there ...

I live in the soul of the world
Lost in a deep living!

Misery, miserable me
But I drink a toast to life!


If there's a night dark enough
Hide me, hide me

If there's a light, a hope
Magnificent sun that shines inside of me
Give me the delight of living that I haven't yet


Misery, misery
That delight of living (perhaps)
That I haven't yet...

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Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Walking Alone


Pic by lancesh on Flickr
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My birthday is coming and since august 27, 2005
Im living the worsts years of my life.
From that date I started lose my dreams
- and I had many -
Day by day my dreams started fading
and I couldnt do anything.
I cant blame anyone for this
cause we are responsable to everything
that happens with us..in a way or another.
Is insane thinking
that everything is alright
when it is not.
Smiling and talking
with a lot of people everyday
Saying that Im fine
I cant lie to myself.
While this Im walking..I cant stop walking.
I just dont know to where Im going.
When I was a little girl I always knew
that God will never leave me but now...
Now Im sure that He is busier
doing other things than think
about what is happening with me
cause there's a lot of people living a life
worse than mine
right?
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Saturday, September 01, 2007

The Chosen


For so long I dont feel God close to me..
The sun doesnt rise to everyone.
God has always his chosen and Im not one of them.
I guess it is like a big family..
dad and mom always love some more than others.
I mean..
a closer empaty..
and how I was always different
I dont have any simpaty at all.
Someday
if I meet God
I will ask Him why.






Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Do you still believe?

Do you still believe in magic ?
Do you still believe in your dreams ?
Do you still believe that better days will come ?
I have a secret place inside of me
Where there is always a hope
A despite of everything
Where I can dream
Even for sometime
I almost lost everything
And I thought I was weaker
But I have a strange kind of fource now
And I don't see the most of my dreams in it
They became weaker
And more distant
It is like being in this world
And watch this world from outside
I can see everything
Even myself
My mistakes
I miss myself how I was before
But now my expectations are not too strong
My dreams are not so colorful
As before.
There's a lack
And I can't name it
I'm kind of dead
Kind of alive
Living between two worlds
Finally I leave life carry me on
And I don't know where I am going
It's nothing between me and people
It is between me
And something so much stronger than all of this
I wish I could feel God
A bit closer
As before
Do you still believe ?
I'd wish to...

Sunday, July 29, 2007

The Paradoxical Commandments (Anyway), The Final Analysis




The Final Analysis
(Mother Teresa's version)

"People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.




(As pessoas são freqüentemente irrascíveis, ilógicas, e auto-centradas;
Perdoe-nas assim mesmo.)




If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.




(Se você é bom, as pessoas podem acusá-lo de egoísta, com ulteriores motivos;
Seja bom assim mesmo.)




If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.




(Se você for bem-sucedido, você ganhará alguns falsos amigos
e alguns verdadeiros inimigos;
Faça sucesso assim mesmo.)




If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.




(Se você é honesto as pessoas podem perturbar você;
Seja honesto e franco assim mesmo.)




What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.




(O que você passou anos construindo, alguém pode destruir em uma noite;
Construa assim mesmo.)




If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.




(Se você encontra serenidade e felicidade, as pessoas podem ter inveja;
Seja feliz assim mesmo.)




The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.




(O bem que você faz hoje, as pessoas freqüentemente esquecem amanhã;
Faça o bem assim mesmo.)




Give the world the best you have,and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.




(Dê ao mundo o melhor que você tem e isso pode nunca ser o bastante;
Dê ao mundo o seu melhor assim mesmo.)




You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;
It was never between you and them anyway...




Veja bem que, no final das contas, é entre você e Deus;
Nunca foi entre você e as pessoas...
(Mother Teresa 1910 - 1997)



The Paradoxical Commandments (Anyway) is both a poem and a book by Kent M. Keith. He wrote the poem as an undergraduate, and it has spread around the world often in slightly altered form. Two decades after writing the original poem, Dr. Keith wrote a book of the same title expanding on the themes of the poem: Anyway: The Paradoxical Commandments: Finding Personal Meaning in a Crazy World (Hodder & Stoughton, 2002)
According to Webster's Dictionary, a paradox is "a seemingly contradictory statement that may nonetheless be true." [1]
And a commandment is "an authoritative direction or instruction to do something." [2]
Therefore, with those definitions in mind, a Paradoxical Commandment is an authoritave direction or instruction to do something that seems contradictory, but may nonetheless be true.
The Paradoxical Commandments provide inspiration to those who are facing the trials of life and who may be struggling to hang onto their principles in the face of change. It is a set of maxims that help keep the reader focused on the goal and willing to endure what may be perceived as failure by some for the greater good of moving forward in a creative life lived with love,integrity, passion and compassion as the central motivational drivers.

Friday, July 13, 2007

Still Learning


Once more I trusted in someone..cause I was feeling that the person was needing some help. Well..we think about others and when is our time they give a damn to what will hapen with us.



But I did my part. If I lose at this time I swear it will be the last advise from the life to me.



Life is not fair at all. Im tired and Im working a lot these days. Trying to make money and someone comes and take it from us with a normal story and it catch us.



Well..never mind. It is always time to learn again.
And this dream is getting more and more distant from me..poor civilization. People just want to get ride on you.
Am I still a believer? lol This civilization doesnt need my trust!



Brazilian government have spent a lot of money

to the Pan American Games...

while our children are sleeping on the streets

our policemen are being dead..

is all about money.

Nothing is gonna change

the human nature.

Friday, July 06, 2007

Blog errors

Finally I had the answer to the error in my blog. I couldnt post here..but now I have fixed and..well.. I thought I would never come back and post here anymore.
I needed to fix my post template and now is done! Thanks Blogger developers for sending me the answer!
Cheers ;-)




Sunday, July 01, 2007

God's Gonna Cut You Down

You can run on for a long time

Run on for a long time

Run on for a long time

Sooner or later God'll cut you down

Sooner or later God'll cut you down

Go tell that long tongue liar

Go and tell that midnight rider

Tell the rambler,

The gambler,

The back biter

Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down

Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down

Well my goodness gracious let me tell you the news

My head's been wet with the midnight dew

I've been down on bended knee talkin' to the man from Galilee

He spoke to me in the voice so sweet

I thought I heard the shuffle of the angel's feet

He called my name and my heart stood still

When he said, "John go do My will!"

Go tell that long tongue liar

Go and tell that midnight rider

Tell the rambler,

The gambler,

The back biter

Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down

Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down

You can run on for a long time

Run on for a long time

Run on for a long time

Sooner or later God'll cut you down

Sooner or later God'll cut you down

Well you may throw your rock and hide your hand

Workin' in the dark against your fellow man

But as sure as God made black and white

What's done in the dark will be brought to the light

You can run on for a long time

Run on for a long time

Run on for a long time

Sooner or later God'll cut you down

Sooner or later God'll cut you down

Go tell that long tongue liar

Go and tell that midnight rider

Tell the rambler,

The gambler,

The back biter

Tell 'em that God's gonna cut you down

Tell 'em that God's gonna cut you down

Tell 'em that God's gonna cut you down

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I'm waiting..just dont let me feel much hurt please

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Hurt

I hurt myself today

To see if I still feel

I focus on the pain

The only thing that's real

The needle tears a hold

The old familiar sting

Try to kill it all away

But I remember everything


What have I become

My sweetest friend

Everyone I know goes away

In the end

And you could have it all

My empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt


I wear this crown of thorns

Upon my liar's chair

Full of broken thoughts

I cannot repair

Beneath the stains of time

The feelings disappear

You are someone else

I am still right here


What have I become

My sweetest friend

Everyone I know goes away

In the end

And you could have it all

My empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt


If I could start again

A million miles away

I would keep myself

I would find a way

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I like this music. John Cash and NiN sing it different.

But John Cash is a legend.

I always remember this music when I do a mistake.

Cause our mistakes always hurt ourselves,

like needles...

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Thursday, June 28, 2007

The Friend I Never Met

Thank you Shashi..

you know who I am since the beginning..

september 25, 2005.


We had a lot of fights but something you have teached to me...

when we are a true friend this feeling never dies.


Thank you for accepting me as I am..

thank you for respecting my age,

my thoughts

and for making me feel stupid sometimes.

But this is called friendship as well.

And thank you for your sincerity

that I couldnt understand in that time.

You were just being realistic.

It makes me see the reality as it is.

Sometimes it still hurts but I can handle it.


I wanted to be happy

I wanted to be loved

I wanted many things

And if they have happened or not

I dont know a happy end.


We are in oposit times of our lives

but I will always remember you..

and my kids

the best part of my life.

This song is for you..
my friend that I've never met....

Who knows if someday we will meet in other dimension?!

It would be funny :)

See ya there sweetheart :P



Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Is it the End?


This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end
Of our elaborate plans, the end
Of everything that stands, the end
No safety or surprise, the end
I'll never look into your eyes...again
Can you picture what will be
So limitless and free
Desperately in need...of some...stranger's hand
In a...desperate land ?

Is it the end?

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Nothing New


After all nothing important happened to change something in my country and my city, one of the most violent cities of the world, is a city of nobody. When I think about this Im sure I would never ever have kids nowadays.

Friday, June 22, 2007

Dust in the Wind


I close my eyes

Only for a moment

And the moment's gone.

All my dreams

Pass before my eyes, a curiousity.

Dust in the wind

All they are is dust in the wind.

Same old song

Just a drop of water in an endless sea.

All we do

Crumbles to the ground

Though we refuse to see.

Dust in the wind

All we are is dust in the wind.

Now, don't hang on

Nothing lasts forever

But the earth and sky.

It slips away,

And all your money

Won't another minute buy.


Dust in the wind

All we are is dust in the wind

Dust in the wind

Everything is dust in the wind.




Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Voodoo


I'm not the one who's so far away
When I feel the snake bite enter my veins
Never did I wanna be here again
And I don't remember why I came


Candles raise my desire
Why I'm so far away
No more meaning to my life
No more reason to stay
Freezing, feeling, breathe-in - breathe in
I'm coming back again


I'm not the one who's so far away
When I feel the snake bite enter my veins
Never did I wanna be here again
And I don't remember why I came


Hazing clouds rain on my head
Empty thought fill my ears
Find my shade by the moonlight
Why my thoughts aren't so clear
Demons dreaming
Breathe- in - breathe- in
I'm coming back again


I'm not the one who's so far away
When I feel the snake bite enter my veins
Never did I wanna be here again
And I don't remember why I came





I'm not the one who's so far away
I'm not the one who's so far away


Saturday, June 09, 2007

Everything that I believe is fading






Now I've told you this once before

You can't control me

If you try to take me down you're gonna break

Now I feel your every nothing that you're doing for me

I'm picking you outta me you run away

I stand alone

Inside

I stand alone

You're always hiding behind your so called goddess

So what you don't think that we can see your face

Resurrected back before the final fallen

Now they've arrest until I can make my own way

I'm not afraid of fading

I stand alone

Feeling your sting down inside of me

I'm not dying for it

I stand alone

Everything that I believe is fading

I stand alone

Inside

I stand alone






And now its my time (now its my time)

It's my time to dream (its my time to dream)

Dream of the skies (dream of the skies)

Make me believe that this place is invaded

By the poison in me

Help me decide if my fire will burn out

Before you can breathe

Breathe into me




I stand alone

Inside

I stand alone

Feeling your sting down inside of me

I'm not dying for it




I stand alone

Everything that I believe is fading

I stand alone

Inside

I stand alone

Inside

I stand alone

Inside

I stand alone

Inside

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This is my fate

Everything that I believe is fading

Feeling your sting down inside of me

I'm not dying for it

I'm not afraid of fading

I stand alone

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Sunday, May 06, 2007

Dance


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I will dance for love
I will dance for pain
I will dance for you
Even in vain
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Taz
- MadMaktub -



Forgive me


Sometimes we need lose something to get to know
how much important it is for us.
Sometimes we need to feel the same to learn how to be better.
The same bad thing we did with others
we will live in the future to see
how much we were bad or ridiculous.


I know if you read this
You will think it's not worth
But first we need to recognize our mistake
Hate our mistake
And fix the damage we caused.


I know also that
Too much time has passed
To show my regret
But since 27 august 2005 my life changed.
And I made another mistake
Trying to find you in other person.
But.. there's just one Usman Khalid in this whole world.
You are the best person I've never ever known.


I know you will never come back to me even as a friend.
I just wanted to say please forgive me.


Taz

Friday, April 20, 2007


Decisions are hard to take but once you have taken

Everything looks so clearer

Nothing to worry about

A calm surrender

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Soon you 'll be free for

Meeting your real self

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If you dont have wings

Use those of your imagination

If you dont have a body

You can expand yourself

And being more

That you have ever imagined

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Nobody will catch you anymore

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Now I know how you felt
In your last day
No one caring about you
No one to understand you
And you were always the best
for the next...
You helped everyone
But nobody helped you


Wherever you are now
I hope you feel how much
I'd like to see you again
My dear
We are the same
I was so young to understand
Which kind of pain
You were taking with you
For so long


You were always laughing
Even of yourself
I always thought you were happy


Forgive me




Monday, April 16, 2007


Finally nothing.
No hopes, no fears, just a bit of pain
-that will get away soon.



In fact, is not just a bit of pain..
- a lot of pain -

How it huuuurtsssssss!
Like a big hole in the center of the chest...
I can put my hand inside and it will come out
by the other side.



Nude,

fallen,

with all dreams undone.



In a lethargic state you slowly stop.
Slowly your eyes close,
your head pends,
and a deep and involuntary breath
comes out from you



no tears.

Saturday, April 14, 2007


Im feeling weird since all that happened. It is not just a social or a security problem, is more than that. There is always a battle.. we cant see. The peons are us. We are part of the game but we dont play. We cant make any rules. Our only "weapon" is our mind. If our mind is weak x strong, or good x bad. The influence will be done by similarity.

Monday, April 09, 2007

...


Our Father, who art in heaven

hallowed be thy Name,

thy kingdom come,

thy will be done,

on earth as it is in heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread

And forgive us our trespasses,

as we forgive those who trespass against us.

And lead us not into temptation,

but deliver us from evil.

For thine is the kingdom,

and the power,

and the glory,

for ever and ever.

Amen.






are you there God?



Sunday, March 25, 2007

...

After the last post I couldnt write here anymore. It was a incredible shock knowing that humans did it with another human. A child! Now the newspaper are publishing various crimes with childrem here. One more scary than other.



I dont know why the most of people doesnt feel anything. It is like: "Thanks God it didnt happen with my family!" Im glad that there are a lot of childrem safe. But if we didnt do anything we will have a urban war. Criminals are already killing policemen...16 just a this month. And the High Command of the Militar Police says that there aint anything out of control! Well..what did he mean by that? What is "out of control" to him them?



When I remember those days of pure nightmare, I think in my kids. On the streets I take their hands like a paranoid. I dont drive the car anymore. I can wait till they grow up.



A small group is formed to fight agaisnt our so "sweet" law...sweet with criminals I must say. Our law has condemned one of the guys who did it with that lil kid to 3 years with the right to be avaliated by 4 in 4 months. So, if they decided that the guy is cured they will free him! This guy is less than 18. He is 16. But his crime had so much cruelty. And someone who arrested a kid of 6 years old, outside the car hanged in safety belt for 7 miles, leaving parts of the kid's body along the way, will be cure in 4 months? Do you believe that someone like that can change in 4 months???



Who knows if I will write here again. This blog means a lot for me cause I write here since 2004.
Here I wrote part of my life..even in a metaphoric way..but I did. Many things has happened since then august 13, 2004.



And about that airplane who has crashed by a Jet in the air and 154 people was killed?
..nothing is solved yet.





My country is a big lie.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

...

Are you there?
hellowwwwwwwww...your back dirty!!!!!!!! sure im here!!!!!! im always here.........
May i go with you?
ohoooooooo.... wanna come with me? whats the craic? feeling alone..awwwwwww
I don't want to fight. May I go with you?
tell me just ONE thing: WHY??
I guess it is not important. Anyway you always wanted me. I'm ready now.
ROFLMAO...dont lie!!! is not right wuawuawua
and who did say that i wanted yo??!!
Well..you are right..you just wanted cheating me all the time. Forget it.
You are just a nightmare, right?
yesssssssssssssssssssss...im your worst nightmare
and i will never leave you
but i dont want you with me........
Why??
you are not strong as before..whats the point in taking a weak soul?
Ok. BYE!
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for the grace of the holy beast! yor going away!!??
YES! I'M GOING TO FIND THE WAY ALONE!!
hmm... im gonna follow yo just to check if yor goin' to the right side lol
FACE IT BEAST! YOU NEED ME AS I NEED YOU NOW..SO GIVE ME YOUR FUCKING UGLY HAND AND TAKE ME AWAY FROM HERE!
NOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!
oh shit!!! dont need to scream i can hear even yor thoughts!!!!
do u think im so weirdo?? i can show you places that nobody can....
hmm..its the first time i hold yor hand...its warm.....
it will be a looong journey babe..............................



Monday, December 25, 2006

James Brown, 1933 - 2006




James Joseph Brown, Jr. (May 3, 1933), most commonly known as James Brown (also known as The Godfather of Soul), died this dec 25, at Atlanta's Emory Crawford Long Hospital of congestive heart failure, his agent said. He was 73.



He was an American entertainer recognized as one of the most influential figures in 20th-century popular music.
As a prolific singer, songwriter, bandleader and record producer, Brown was a seminal force in the evolution of gospel and rhythm and blues into soul and funk. He left his mark on numerous other musical genres, including rock, jazz, reggae, disco, dance and electronic music, afrobeat, and hip-hop music.



Brown -- known variously as "the Godfather of Soul," "The Hardest Working Man in Show Business," "Soul Brother Number One" and "Mr. Dynamite" (and often introduced as all of the above) -- was known for his elastic dance moves, razor-sharp musicianship and all-stops-out performances. (Watch the incomparable Brown perform )



He was, literally, an impossible act to follow: Keith Richards has said that the Rolling Stones' appearance following Brown in "The T.A.M.I. Show," a 1964 concert that appeared on film the next year, was the biggest mistake of their lives. Brown's performance in that show even earned an ovation from the backing band.
"You have the Rolling Stones on the same stage, all of the important rock acts of the day, doing their best -- and James Brown comes out and destroys them," producer Rick Rubin wrote in Rolling Stone. (i-Report: Your thoughts on James Brown)




1 Biography
1.1 Early life
1.2 The beginnings of the Famous Flames
1.3 "Papa gets a brand new bag"
1.4 The late 1960s: "Ain't It Funky Now"
1.5 The 1970s: The JB's
1.6 Into the late-1970s and 1980s
1.7 Later years and death
2 Personal life and dedications to Brown
3 Trivia
4 Discography
4.1 Top ten singles
4.2 Best albums
4.3 Chronological collections
5 Sample
6 References
7 External links









RIP

Sunday, December 24, 2006

Your dream is over... or has it just begun?

Somewhere.. so far away....



I find the map and draw a straight line
Over rivers, farms, and state lines
The distance from here to where you'd be
It's only finger-lengths that I see
I touch the place where I'd find your face
My finger increases of distant dark places

I hang my coat up in the first bar
There is no peace that I've found so far
The laughter penetrates my silence
As drunken men find flaws in science

Their words mostly noises
Ghosts with just voices
Your words in my memory
Are like music to me

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground And I,
I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

After I have travelled so far
We'd set the fire to the third bar
We'd share each other like an island
Until exhausted, close our eyelids
And dreaming, pick up from
The last place we left off
Your soft skin is weeping
A joy you can't keep in

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground And I,
I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

And miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground And I,
I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

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(set the fire to the third bar - snow patrol)

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thank you chief

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Friday, December 22, 2006

I'm so Tired of it All - Hank Williams Sr



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In life and love, I’ve been a failure

Too many tears thru it all

Too many broken vows and promises

And now I’m so tired of it all.









Ev’ry thing I loved, I lost, dear

Too many times I’ve watched my castles fall

My life is full of regretting

And now I’m so tired of it all.









From this world I’ll soon be goin’

No one will miss me, after all

Up there, I pray I’ll find contentment

But now I’m so tired of it all.

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Sunday, December 10, 2006

~ HAPPY CHRISTMAS! ~

Christmas is coming soon! The streets again are full of x-mas trees, full of people going to the malls or walking on the streets searching for new clothes, gifts, something new to decorate their houses or tickets for travelling to somewhere.



Christmas is a time of hope and happiness in which people gather all family to prove that is nothing wrong among them...at least at that day. It's time to shaking hands and giving hugs asking forgiveness and forgiving. It's (for christians) the most important day of the year (among the other officials days) made to start again our failed relations. Well, at least that's what we learned when we are children....



They say that this is a time to think about what we do or we did. Do you think you were good this year? If you didn't it is time to consider to be a new person, to don't cheat people, to don't steel public money (or any other thing even a simple idea), to don't say lies, to don't laugh of the other miseries or don't be the reason of the other miseries. And be really a good friend of your friends. But if you have someone that you don't want to talk or if you dont like him/her, at least leave them in peace, and wish something good to them in your heart.



It is time to believe that we can transform ourselves in such a better person. And pray for a better world.




Warning: If this video is creep for you or if you think that is ridiculous, change of channel please. It's so common to hear from people: "Oh! This world is so full of disagreeable things better don't think about it and be happy!"

You know..take your silver spoon and dig your grave...U are creep!

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But if you care about it think how you and your family are happy. You have food, maybe a car, and a home to come back. Make, not just this day but all days of your life, something meaningful not just to your family and friends but even to people that you even don't know.


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Monday, December 04, 2006

hello green thingy..once more you come to cheating me!
what you want?

i want yourrrrrrrrr wingsssssssss!!!!
i mean......MY wings!
remember that i gave 'em to U once, dont you?

i've just accepted cause you had broken mine
and now you come once again to take it from me
you don't have right to get it back!

right? which right dirty?!
U are NOTHING without meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

i'm nothing with or without you now
you are an evil thingy..what comes everytime i'm trying to fly again
you know.. soon i will not need wings
i hope you die!

ohohohoh what bad Uuuu R!! im immortal and U know that!
U retarded..blo0dy biaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatch!!!!!!

you know what?
for the first time i need to agree with you
just a retarted could believe on you once..twice!
i don't know what will happen with me now
i still can't see anything
you took me back to the darkness
but i'll survive

uhuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!! im impresssssssssssed!
u still believe in something!?

nothing is forever
and someday i'll be free
may you leave me in peace now?

i ll be around u girl
waiting U fall down
so much more
cheers ;)

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

hellooooooo..ahha! didn't see ya for so0 loooooooong!!!!
hay dirty lil girl! im talking to ya!!!
cant u listening meeeeeeeeeeee?!?!?!?!?!?!
i know u can....

Friday, November 10, 2006

- OJOS DE BRUJO - New Flamenco!
















Ojos de Brujo translates as "eyes of the wizard". It's an appropriate name for a band who attempt to create musical magic. Formed from a collective of young Spanish musicians who use flamenco as a foundation for cross-genre experimentation, Ojos de Brujo incorporate elements of hip-hop, funk, salsa, and reggae into a dynamic flamenco sound.

'It's time to try things. We don't try and invent something, it's more like cooking - you can eat paella all the time but if you mix it with something it's new and tasty. We don't have to do Catalan rumba like our fathers. We try and do fusion, not confusion. The song has to work. Maybe we'll put some berimbau over Latin funk. Or with palmas (the rhythmic handclapping of flamenco) we'll mix some hip-hop scratching. OK, you can't change the rhythm of flamenco but you can put a Hammond on that rhythm and it works.' said original lead singer Dani Monoloco.

Thursday, November 09, 2006

.::FLAMENCO!::.

















Flamenco is a folk art, around 200 years old. It is from Southern Spain and is individualistic, yet structured. Song, dance and guitar are blended into passionate rhythms which are often improvised and spontaneous. Flamenco will have any imaginable theme, from up to date stories, to politics, to love, to history, to humor, etc. Often however, the tragic lyrics and tone of flamenco reflect the sufferings of the gypsy people from whom it originated.



Flamenco exists in three forms: Cante, the song, Baile, the dance, and Guitarra, guitar playing. The source of Flamenco, however, lies in the tradition of singing. The singers' role is very important with the guitar playing an accompaniment to the song. Today the solo guitar flamenco has developed into a separate art and is fashionably blended with jazz, blues and pop music.



Flamenco dance has complex patterns of rhythm and sophisticated footwork with the upper body emphasising grace and posture.



The songs of flamenco are from different regions as: Fandangos from Huelva; and Alegrias from Cadiz. There are two main styles in Flamenco: "jondo" - the serious and deep meaning, the cry of oppressed people; and "chico" happy, light and often humorous. The ideal in flamenco is called "duende" (demon or elf), which is a state of emotional involvement, group communication at a deep level and a feeling of sympathy, between musicians, dancers and listeners.





And this one is one of which my friend Valentino from Spain has indicated to me:

SARA BARAS
I have many influences in my life. In my mood, in my way to dress or in my way to think. I like many music rhythms and I'm always trying to know something new or different. It doesn't mean that I will hear that again.

Marilyn Manson's video reminds me strong colors like red. (btw my favorite color is red cherry!). And red reminds me life, passion and some kind of music like rock or just..flamenco.


And is about flamenco that will be my next post and I will post about new flamenco too, just a band: Ojos de Brujo. I'm trying to find a good video about castanets too cause I really like castanets but I didn't find till now a good quality video.

Why flamenco then? Well, some years back I have learned flamenco ballet. I used to passed my free time just playing that. It is really an amazing experience dancing in a so strong way, playing castanets and 'tip-taping': it makes you wake up. Our teacher, Teo (he was originally greek and his name is "unpronounceable"!) was so tireless, exigent and sweet at the same time. He made me love what I was learning.


Flamenco is a passionate music and dance. If you want to be a good flamenco dancer (or anything else in life) you need hours of exercise. But the most important is the feeling and passion. Latins in general have passion enough to do something like that. But hardly a german, romanian or a finnish could feel the same but sure it has exceptions. And americans..hmmn..they can do anything..hehe. But it depends on each person.

So, there's no obvious connection between Marilyn Manson and Flamenco, just the red color.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

-------------------------- MM --------------------------

















Everytime I hear or I watch Manson I feel something strong. Love or hate him but he will always be an interesting personality. Some people say that he is wierd or sick but for me he is just trying to make comes out something that is killing him inside. Sometimes he is so scary for me..but I'm scary for some people as well..sometimes.

Marilyn Manson (born Brian Hugh Warner on January 5, 1969) is an American musician and the lead vocalist of the band Marilyn Manson. His current name is formed from the names Marilyn Monroe and Charles Manson. Manson bears the title of "Reverend" in Anton LaVey's Church of Satan.

He was born in Canton, Ohio and attended Heritage Christian School, but was soon turned off from Christianity, which he viewed as hypocritical and more concerned with instilling fear than virtue. He has stated that the Christian vision of the Apocalypse in particular had a lasting effect upon his outlook. After transferring to and later graduating from Canton's GlenOak High School, Warner and his family moved to Boca Raton, Florida. While living in Boca Raton, he studied journalism and theater at Broward Community College , and became the assistant entertainment editor of BCC's student newspaper, the Observer.

Manson convinced long time friend Jessicka (Jack Off Jill, Scarling.) to start a riot grrl-esque band, which he later dubbed Jack Off Jill. He not only produced most of the band's early recordings but also played guitar on the song My Cat. Jack Off Jill went to open most of his South Florida shows.
Manson has helped or provided full scores for several major motion pictures, although several of his pieces have been cut, and his name dropped from the credits. Some of his more notable soundtrack score contributions include From Hell, The Matrix and Resident Evil.
Manson appeared as a guest on rapper DMX's album Flesh of My Flesh, Blood of My Blood for the track "The Omen", produced by Swizz Beats, and has performed (with the rest of the band) on stage with Eminem as background music in the song "The Way I Am".
Manson sang vocals on "Break You Down" off of the Washington, DC-based industrial rock band Godhead's 2000 Years of Human Error album. This album is distinguished for being the only one released on Manson's vanity label Posthuman.

Manson made a cameo appearance as a doctor in the Murderdolls' music video "Dead in Hollywood", and also appears in the Nine Inch Nails music video "Starsuckers, Inc." He appeared in some films too. His first appearance in a film was in the role of a pornographic actor in David Lynch's Lost Highway, in 1997.

He is also a watercolor painter. An exhibit for his art was held at Los Angeles Contemporary Exhibitions on September 13, September 14, 2002 and also at the Hotel Lutecia, Paris on September 14, 2004 and the next day in Berlin. He contributed a piece to the West Memphis Three benefit exhibition at six spaces. Many of his paintings have sold for over $5,000; buyers include Jack Osbourne, Nicolas Cage, Dave Navarro, Andy Dick and Lisa Marie Presley.

Well..I have just pasted something from his biography here. If you wanna know more just click on the tittle link post.


Marilyn Manson (band)

Monday, November 06, 2006

So..What's new?

Since I was in a nun school they used to tell us to act always like someone was watching us. They thought that in that way we all would do less mistakes. I dont know but the fact is that till today I never put my finger inside my nose - just when I take shower to clean it, I never make strange noises :P and I'm always sick about smells, I mean, always taking shower and wearing perfumes and cleaning my teeth like crazy and I used - and I do till now - sleeping like a princess :D or like I think that a princess would do :P. I dont lay on my bed like a common mortal..hehe. Ah! And I don't go to the wash room with the open door! Ever!

I know that those are just details but if you will live with someone sure the other person will notice all that! But it is all a routine. With time you learn to do that automatically and it starts to be a part of you.

How many things we do automatically in our lives? At home, on the streets, at work? And even with people. Or even to show to everyone how cool we are! It will never change! People use to do right things or try to do impressive things when they are close to others..or when they want to be closer...but why dont do that normally? Have you ever seen someone that at the beginning is gentle and cool and later you notice that this person is disgusting? I prefer do have the consciens about who I really am than pretend to be something that I am not. The problem is..who am I? haha

But the point is..we are always living in a repetitive way everyday. Doesn't matter if you are good or not. YOU ARE A REPETITION! Everything is always exactly the same..wherever you go..whenever it happens..just dates are different..in the History or in your simple or luxurious or violent or clean or dirty or pretended life! Just some are smarter than others. So, try to be creative if you wanna win or live something really good in life.

Saturday, November 04, 2006

MadMaktub I - Beta Version!

Finally i got it! I have read a lot of comments about to switch the old version to this new one..and it was not good. But today I have decided to take the risk and...tcharam! That's perfect!

I've just needed to make few changes to this new version works completelly. And I'm so glad that everything is fine here.

But I won't delete my new one. In my profile both will be there.
Just check it out!

See ya later alligator ;)

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

MadMaktub...a new beginning

It seems that was just few months ago that I've started to write here. Now there's a new blogger version..beta. But I was afraid that this new version could make some changes here. So, this blog now is too heavy in all senses anyway. I thought that I should try the other version before to change this blog first.

The big change really changed me and I'm not the same anymore. Who doesn't change? In two years I have changed more than half of my life. Anyways I'm still not perfect at all! Who is?

This blog is a diary even when it doesn't look like one. Everything is true here even when it seems that it is a fiction. Everything has a sense even when it seems to have no sense.

But surelly a new way is beggining and I don't know if it is better or worse. Just time will show it. But I really like changes. If still stones change its shapes and the universe is expanding along the time...why not me? ;)

I was reading some pages here today. I could see the simple beginning, later the colors and so much life. And a lot of feelings inside of it. Sometimes when I look back I think that it was not me there. Maybe somebody else writing in my place.

It is beautiful seeing all this but I will not miss anything. I dont belong to anywhere.

Even so..

The story continues...

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