in a Monday, January 17, 2005 i wrote this:
im burning..it hurts..at the end ill be just ashes..and ill need to reborn again...
but we need to be survivers..life is very short to care abt people that cannot accept each other how they are.. if u have a friend in case dont u accept him/her how he/she is? yes..u need to accept them..if u are really a friend.. friends dont look for u just when u are happy..they walk besides u even when u are falling down.. i hav friends..some of them were people that nobody care before..i gave them my care..my light..my friendship..and they could keep a better way to live.. if a person that u call friend doenst care abt u when u are in your bad days..he/she cant be called as friend anymore..itll be better let he/she go away.. many people ask me how can i have so different friends...simple..i love people..i love this life..ill be always besides a friend when he/she needs me.. think abt how your friends are with u..think abt how u are with your friends.. and remember..we are nothing to judge anyone..
http://madmaktub.blogspot.com/2005/01/burning.html
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Its strange how we can say the same thing but wih different ending. Im not strong as I used to be. I was born many times but now I think that I have to define what is death, ashes, reborn for me. Life is totally different that I dreamt and I didnt have enough - a portuguese poet already said it in Passing Hours. Where am I going, I dont know. But if I dont like I know how to finish a possible nightmare. BTW.. I feel that Im not living my own life. There are many things too much wrong to be my life...things that I cannot change. For awhile, look at Fênix makes me feel good.
